|Ever so apt.|
Not that they were necessarily good lines or anything, just an inadequate, disjointed fragment of a story/poem thing, but it was just what I needed to get that first line out of my head. It really was driving me a little nuts, kind of like a literary (in a very loose sense) earworm.*
So I was thinking about first lines today -- and then lines in general and that gave me Blurred Lies as an earworm but that's a different problem (although, of course, a rather apt description of my writing prowess, thank you Alan Thicke!) -- but I was wondering how real poets work on poems? Does a line or a phrase kind of pop into a real poet's head, as happens to me, and then you craft the thing around that line? Or do words coalesce around a feeling or experience or thought or whatever, and swirl into a poem? (Swirl being another bad word.) (With a lot of work, of course.) Maybe I should so some research on how real poets write -- I'm sure it's different for everyone. Look at all the envelopes Emily had. If I ever meet one, I'm going to ask.
Here's another thing. I've had another idea for months and months and I keep working it around in my head but have had nowhere to hang it, then today I kind of got an idea for it but it's so amorphous, I have like one phrase and a mood and now a framework but it hasn't gelled yet. And gelled isn't really what I mean. Coalesce is what I mean but I used that word already somewhere. Anyway I made some notes today but it's still not there. Maybe I need to find the right song to listen to or work harder on the notes or just give up and really try to write just one more f*cking bad poem.
Perhaps you sense my frustration.
But I know one thing -- the damn little phrase and the bigger idea and most of all the feeling of it, it's a strangely alive THING in my head that's maybe indescribable -- I won't be rid of it until I write the crap out of it, and you will not know how funny this sentence is until you read the (bad) poem, which I don't intend to be funny. At. All.
* The spellcheck does not like 'earworm' but it's not only in Urban Dictionary it's in Merriam-Webster, although the number one definition there is a corn ear worm, oddly salient since I'm in Indiana.